I like this. I have something that I can write in that can remain annonymous.
My boyfriend and I have one main problem. That's my past. I dated a another boy for about a year or so, and a lot of things happened, one that he cheated on me with a girl, twice. This betrayal has been with me for a while, and it's still with me. But since I already broke up with him, this betrayal shouldn't matter anymore. But it still does.. For me, it's not because of the two people, anymore. It's only because of the betrayal that's still hurting me.
If I were my boyfriend, I wouldn't be able to understand.
I'm being a horrible girlfriend, and I'm being unfair to him. But, this betrayal sometimes still haunts me. And I know it hurts him everyday too.
I need to get out of this mindset, but I can't.
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